College

Standing at the doorway of my life

Wondering when and if it will start

Watching others live for me

I feed on their lives

Vicariously.

Like so many others

I am passive, wait

Scared of change, or simply too lazy to bother?

Soon I will find out.

My life will begin soon,

Alone in a place far away from

Everything I know and

Everyone I love.

A daunting beginning.

Will I be forgotten,

Life in quiet obscurity

Or success beyond my wildest dreams

(And my dreams are pretty wild!)

Will I shine, will I fade?

Will I succeed or fail?

So many questions, so much choice

My life is mine to do with as I will

If I percieve it to be so.

Reality is what you can get away with.

I will get away with it all.

Aug. 28, 1999